I Have Parkinson’s Disease and This Is How It Affects Me (Part 2)

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Sherri Journeying Through

In my last column, “I Have Parkinson’s Disease and This Is How It Affects Me, Part 1,” I shared what having Parkinson’s disease is like, according to those who live with it on a daily basis. This is second in the series. 

It’s my body, but I’m not in control. People are telling me to speak up, quit mumbling, talk louder. I am speaking up. I’m not mumbling. I am talking louder.

“There,” I say. “I’m yelling now! Is that better?!?” They say they can now hear me. Just barely. Maybe they have potatoes in their ears.

“Hey,” they say, “what’s wrong? Why ya’ so down?”

Let me check. I didn’t think I was down. I didn’t think anything was wrong.

“What makes you think there’s something wrong?”

“You’re not smiling.”

Oh … that’s Parkinson’s. It took my smile and handed me a mask with a frown instead. But I’m smiling on the inside. Does that count?

I barely slept last night. I awoke screaming from the nightmares that plague me in the dark hours. It’s so hard to get back into position in order to sleep again. I roll to the left, and you remember that lead body suit I had? Well, it followed me into bed, and what takes you a mere second to do, takes me three to five minutes, and rolling over is one of the hardest things to do. And if I happen to be in pain … most impossible.

The pain can be pins and needles.
The pain can be a sharp knife being twisted in my back.
The pain can come suddenly, gripping my hands, my calves, my feet, my anything.

The pain can be stiffness and rigidity.
The pain can be my muscles.
The pain can be my joints, my toes.

The pain can be isolation.
The pain can be sorrow.
The pain can be grief.

I used to be like the Energizer Bunny. I could go and go and go. No more. I may go, but it’s a much slower pace. I feel sluggish. I feel like my body is a bottle and Parkinson’s is the cork and I’ve got so much left to do, but I can’t get out.

I am tired. I am weary. Fear whispers lies and hopelessness into my soul, leaving me scared and afraid.

People think I’m drunk. If they only knew that the medication that seeks to bring reprieve is the culprit that leaves me vulnerable to wrong impressions and false assumptions.

What once brought me joy can now bring sorrow … if I choose. I used to stop and smell the flowers, but no more. The Little Monster took the sense of smell from me, too. But what once made me gag — dirty diapers, feed lots — does no more.

I may get frustrated over issues associated with this disease, such as incontinence, constipation, irritable bowel syndrome, choking, fatigue, inability to write legibly, tripping … or I can choose to lift my masked face upward, refuse to let it weigh me down and keep walking forward one step, one shuffle, one moment at a time, and never forgetting … God’s got this.


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Jim avatar


Sherri, Thank you for your column. I feel as though I had written it myself as it so closely describes my frustrations with social interactions, people not "getting" me and reacting only to visual cues. I understand that it is just human nature and not intentional. Also, my dysphagia and need to prepare meals in a blender most of the time. Its reassuring in a way to know that we persons with PD are not alone or unique, and that there are others dealing with the same issues.

Vinnie avatar


Hi Sherri,
Can you please call me at 416-867-7161

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Sherri Woodbridge

Vinnie - you can email me at [email protected]

Patrick avatar


Hi Sherri, very well done,i think the average person would find it hard to believe that some one with PD could have so many problems, most think of a tremor only.
I am sure most of us can identify with your issues , you seem to have the right attitude for coping,i wish you all the best and keep reading

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Sherri Woodbridge

Thank you, Patrick

Helen avatar


Thanks for sharing Sherri. This educates me more and, even though different people may have different symptoms at various stages, helps me understand what a friend is going through far more than I did.

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Sherri Woodbridge

Thank you, Helen. Glad you have found it helpful.


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