On the Days When Pain Subsides, Call It Mercy

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Sherri Journeying Through
If you asked me what is the hardest part of having Parkinson’s disease, I might have to say the pain — today, at least.

PD is so unpredictable. As it changes from day to day, moment by moment, second by second, sometimes you don’t know what to expect. Sometimes you just have to take it as it comes.

The pain is hard to deal with because there’s not much to be done about it. The medications don’t wipe it out completely, if at all. And when the pain of dystonia hits you — an extra additive that sometimes goes along with having PD — it can be brutal. First, you feel it coming on. Then, you watch as your muscles contract, contort, and cramp into a stiffness that only can be rubbed away at the cost of more pain.

It is like a slow blow to the body leaving behind the feeling of being brutally beaten at one place of contact, not leaving any scars for the world to see. It is a pain you carry like a bruise (once it passes), reminding you that you are no longer in control. The disease now decides when and where you will experience what and how, and there is no forewarning. There is no grace given by the little monster we call Parkinson’s disease.

There also is not an exorbitant amount of grace given by Parkinson’s disease for other symptoms one may have to endure. Like dyskinesia — the uncontrollable flailing about one may experience, not due to Parkinson’s disease necessarily, but caused by the medicinal cocktails one partakes of to help with the tremors PD is most well-known known for. For quite a number of people living with PD, this may be the hardest part of their journey with Parkinson’s disease. The uncontrolled journey of PD.

There are several more factors that play into a life of living with PD, and they are as different to each participant as night is to day.

As I sat in my doctor’s office more than 10 years ago and asked new questions regarding an old disease, it never occurred to me to ask about pain. My knowledge and wisdom regarding PD were more limited than they are today. My learning curve wasn’t as great. I never would have thought that the kind of pain dystonia brings would be a part of my journey because I didn’t know pain existed as part of the plethora of symptoms one may have to endure with this little monster.

It is one of those symptoms they call invisible in Parkinson’s disease, one no one else may see, and few can understand. But it is real and it is a hard one to put up with.

A friend wrote me recently about her struggles with PD. She said a man in her church passed away from a very painful cancer. He kept praying for God to take away his pain or to take him away. Then he had a dream about Jesus. In his dream, Jesus told him that “pain is part of the journey.”

Pain is indeed a part of the journey. We can allow it to make us bitter or make us humble, vulnerable or closed off, holy or incomplete.

My friend also said her dad used to tell her that “some days are diamonds and some days are stones, but notice — they are both hard.”

You have to take the good with the bad. And there will be hard days, days of darkness, days of pain. The stone days. But there will be good days — diamond days. Days when the dyskinesia is under control. Days when the pain has subsided. Those are the diamond days. The days to sparkle. The days to shine. The days to soak in the reprieve of the pain-filled ones and call them … grace. Call them mercy.

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David L Keller MD avatar

David L Keller MD

I agree with you, Sherri, that the pain of dystonia is the worst, but fortunately it doesn't hit me every day, and it responds within 30 minutes to Sinemet in my case, which also helps my painful restless legs and burning central pain. Lately, I have had joint pains, and when I had my shoulders x-rated, marked calcific tendinitis was seen exactly where the pain was most intense. Ibuprofen helps this pain a lot, and I am considering treatments with therapeutic ultrasound (UTS), which were offered. Has
anyone had any luck with UTS for this tendinitis pain?

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Jillian Carson avatar

Jillian Carson

Hi David
I have had calcific tendinitis in the past . I was given 3 cortisone shots with relief from pain but always came back . I did UTS and have been pain free now for 3 years . I still have dystonia in the same arm but it is sinemet responsive . I try to keep on as much as I can so the dystonia stays silent
Jillian Carson BScPT
Ambassador WPC2019 Kyoto

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Sherri Woodbridge avatar

Sherri Woodbridge

Thanks for your informative comment, Jillian! And, thanks for being an ambassador to WPC 2019!

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David L. Keller, MD, MS, FACP avatar

David L. Keller, MD, MS, FACP

Many thanks!

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jakjak

has anyone tried CBD oils, I have been taking them after many weeks of research, didnt expect it to make a difference to physical symptoms, it hasn't. But, my mental place is now so calm about having Parkies, what a huge relief.

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Joel Theron Obray avatar

Joel Theron Obray

My wife sent me this article a while ago, but being a man and having all the answers, and the me man, me fix everything mind set.... I never looked at it until now.
Some days are diamonds, some days are stones I have used to express my days. Some have know idea of what that means. I then refer them to the song by John Denver, titled Some days are diamonds, some days are stones. Showing my age I guess? But that is the reality of Parkinson's. Good, Bad, in Between, some days, Well somedays are just days.
Thanks for a place to go so I don't feel so odd.

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